In loving him 
-MistressAli

In loving him
     So much
Have I become him?
Have I taken his traits unto myself?
Made his insecurities mine..
Caged myself in his same fears.

'Try to be the girl you once were.'

But I don't know who she is 
Was she like this?
I don't know 
I don't remember this hate
For the world, the people, 
     the mirror

I have immersed myself in him 
In milky blues and hues of brown
And shades of pale skin 
I have searched the filthy layers
Of his soul 

And in the process I fear
I have become him
Dirt stains the fingers. 
But I don't know.

'Try to be the girl you once were.'

Maybe I was always this girl
Maybe I was always like him.



A/N: The line 'try to be the girl you once were' was taken from the song 'Candle' by Vast.